So to continue my about page, here’s a little bit about me. I’m from a small city in northern Alberta. Big enough that your chances of someone knowing it exists when you tell them where you’re from are about 75%. Small enough that at times it can feel totally suffocating. I have always been somewhat of a home body, I liked knowing my family was nearby, and I liked the familiarity of what I’d always known. But on the flip side of that, I never really felt happy.

Almost exactly one year ago, I finally decided to ditch the comfort of the only place I had ever called home, and move to a new city in a new province, to pursue what I once would have considered an impossible dream. I always laugh at myself when I think of that morning at 4:30am as I sobbed over a bowl of mini wheats and told my mom “I just don’t think I can do it!” HA! Now here I am, coming home for the summer and telling anyone who will listen to get out of here while they still can. It’s not that it’s awful where I’m from, by any means, but if you want to survive and get any sense of what life is about you really need to leave. I think probably a lot of people can relate to this.

Leaving was hands down the best thing I have ever done for myself. It didn’t solve all my problems, but it definitely gave me a new perspective, a few new perspectives actually, and I learned a lot about myself. I have realized that in some ways I have always been a little more mature than most people my age. I think maybe I just process things differently. Either way, I have caught myself so many times spilling my thoughts to someone and having them respond with “wow! That was so wise.” Me, wise? Who knew? Which leads me to the main point of my very first blog post.

Why am I starting a blog? Like I said in my about page, recently I have been flooded with so many thoughts and feelings, and an intense desire to get them out into the world somehow. I started with little things, but nothing was feeling quite like enough, I really wanted to share my thoughts more fully. Not even necessarily with a bigger audience, just something where I could explore my ideas in more depth and know that at least they were making their way out into the universe.

I just feel like I need to get things out there, I’m not sure if anyone else understands that? My head is so full of thoughts, and small memories, and words, so many words. I just want them all out there! I don’t know how to explain it. And I don’t know how to accomplish it. But there are so many things I want to tell people! Like tiny shouts of my existence. I was here, and I lived, and I thought, and I loved, and I existed!!

That coupled with my mom incessantly telling me I need to start a blog for myself, has led me to this point. Hopefully I can keep it up, and give anyone who will listen a little insight on what my ever changing life is all about.

So again, if you’re reading this, for any reason, thank you. I hope you know you now share a small piece of my soul.